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The morning they brought Ella home, Marcus cried in the driveway for four full minutes before he could go inside.
Sophie stood with him. She didn't try to stop him or hurry him. She just placed her hand on his back while their newly three-year-old daughter waited in the car seat, looking at them with large, curious eyes.
Ella had been through enough. She could wait four minutes while her new father collected himself.
The adoption process had taken two years, four months, and eleven days. Sophie knew the exact number โ she'd marked it in her journal, not out of bitterness but because she needed proof later that it had all been real.
Marcus had hated the waiting. He was a fixer โ someone who saw problems and solved them. Paperwork that took eight months when it should have taken three was not a problem he could solve. He simply had to endure.
Sophie endured differently. She made plans. She painted a room. She bought small books and arranged them on a low shelf, at a height that would be just right for small hands.
Ella had been in foster care since she was eighteen months old. The details of how she'd gotten there were in the file. Sophie had read them once, quietly, alone, and then put the file away somewhere she didn't look often.
What mattered now was the girl in the car seat โ the girl who liked purple things and called the dog across the street "the woofie." The girl who slept with a stuffed giraffe named Kevin.
Kevin had come with her. It was the only thing that had.
The first six months were hard. Not because Ella was difficult โ she was three, which meant she was both exhausting and wonderful in equal measure. They were hard because attachment is not instant. Because love is a practice, not an event.
And then one Saturday morning, Ella climbed into Marcus's lap while he was reading, tucked her head under his chin, and fell back asleep.
She chose him. After that, Marcus stopped lying awake.
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A year passed. Then another. Ella started school. She developed strong opinions about breakfast and an attachment to yellow rain boots she wore regardless of weather.
Sophie and Marcus relaxed into it โ into being her parents, into being a family. They weren't thinking about growing again. They were happy. Complete.
And then the phone rang. It was the agency. And the woman on the other end said something that made Sophie sit down slowly on the kitchen floor.
Sophie looked up. Marcus was in the doorway, watching her with that particular look โ the one that meant he'd follow her wherever this went.
She covered the phone. "Ella has a brother," she said.
Part 2 โ the impossible decision that wasn't really a decision at all.
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